Hi there :)
for once in my life things are going pretty well - I survived the summer without any mayor breakdowns, just got myself a promising job starting only two weeks after I'll have finished my studies in autumn, my last day at work is finally within reach, booked a little getaway for my closest friend and me for next month, reunited with a friend I lost a while back and I've met someone that makes my head spin. You see, I have every damn reason to be happy. Yet, I'm not... at least not fully.
I seem to be incapable of being happy when those I love the most aren't. Of course, there's sort of a basic happiness I'm quite capable of achieving on my own (you should have seen me dancing around in public when I got the call saying I had the job :D) but knowing that my closest friend suffers from a vicious viral infection and that other people I feel close to are going through very difficult times, I just can't be happy for real. Call it empathy, call it dependency, call it whatever you want to - it's just the way I am.
So all I do for now is waiting for the day my best friend'll have recovered and I can finally see him again because right now it seems that happiness isn't worth much if I can't share it with him...
More updates coming soon
xoxo
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